February 10, 2000

I got a couple comments about yesterday's entry. Some people were surprised that I had that type of experience in school, because theirs was completely different. One person said that she had trouble imagining how high school could have been that way for me, since her experience was so vastly different.

I don't think I'm completely alone in my experience, but there were some factors contributing to its uniqueness. First, I grew up in a small town. When there are only 30,000 people in your entire town, and there are only 1,000 students at your high school, it's not as hard to stand out. If I'd been in a bigger city, in a bigger school, I probably wouldn't have felt so singled out.

Also, I don't like to play sports. I played softball for one season and hated it. I was an outfielder, and no amount of bug spray would keep the mosquitoes off me. I hate bugs, I hate them so much. So, softball didn't work out for me, and I never had any interest in many other sports. My friend Jeff in school was just as smart as me, just as singled out academically, but... he played football, so he had a ready-made group of friends who were ready to accept him as one of them.

And, finally, to some extent I LIKED being the outsider. I liked feeling left out of the "cool" groups and like a loner. It's not like I had no friends, but the friends I did have were definitely not part of the "cool clique" or whatever. We were awesome because we weren't buying in to the establishment. We were fighting the Man! Yeah!

Once a freak, always a freak, I guess.

Oops. The reason the link to this page was broken until halfway through the day was because last night I put up some REALLY raunchy jokes that I heard last night, and then I thought better of it and took it down. I'm still a little scared that someday my Mom will read this page. I don't know, though, if you really want to see them, let me know and maybe I'll put them up in tomorrow's entry.

Star Wars-related stuff. So I heard from Aint-It-Cool-News that Leo DiCaprio is NOT going to be playing Anakin. I swear to God when I heard this I wanted to throw a big ol' party. Whoo-hoo! No Leo! See, you don't understand how much I hate Leonardo DiCaprio. I went to see the last 2/3 of Titanic, and it would have been a great movie without Leo in it. I don't understand the attraction. He looks like a 12-year-old. People aren't supposed to be attracted to boys who have not yet developed any major muscle groups, or facial hair for that matter. Fresh-faced dewy-looking boys make me think of day care, not romance. I don't understand what's wrong with the world.

I do understand that apparently Leo is not going to be a part of Star Wars Episode 2, and that makes me jubilant. I totally love Star Wars, I totally loved Phantom Menace, and I fully expect to totally love Episode 2. Except that I would have found it difficult to fully enjoy Episode 2 if I had to sit through two hours of staring at Leo DiCaprio's non-stubble-enhanced face.

Just so you know, I am not a regular visitor of Aint-It-Cool-News. Harry's constant self-promotion gets on my nerves, as does the million-point font. I heard this no-Leo rumor, though, and I had to go check it out. I had to. I couldn't help it.

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